Oh yeah.

WJ invented a new game to play during marching. I'm not even sure whether we are allowed to do that.

Well, she wanted to be the commander and she goes like that. Instead of the usual ''bris barisan bersedia ke depan cepat jalan'', she went ''bris lima langkah ke depan gerak'' about four times. She intended to do it all the way. No one wanted to 'play' with her. But she was really very 'high'.

And she took some twisties and started advertising it. During marching. When she was giving commands.

=D

I. NEED. HELP. HERE.

I seriously need help. I can't find a topic. And I'm NOT risking to get myself embarrassed on Thursday. What to do?

I found a topic. But I'm not finding it easy for me to memorize.

Any ways for me to avoid that?

Not go to school on Thursday.
But how could I? I've never missed school without a valid reason. And my mom would not allow me to do that. And get scolded as usual.
Besides, they are going hiking after school to do Geografi folio.

Man. She's using the wrong way. Making me feel bad and forcing me to work harder isn't the way. And threatening to take the laptop and my cellphone away. And scolding me for little things. And getting herself all stressed up and screams at me.

I used a lot of 'And'.

Pandu Puteri was good. Except for the interview. I'm beginning to love it there. I like marching. But I hate standing in the sun.

Damn. A lot of things to do. And I'm still wasting time here.

Was really busy these few days.
Relatives came to Penang for cheng beng. I didn't like them though. They treated me as if I was invisible. Anyway, I'm used to it now. Lived like that for 15 years. What more could I expect from them?
Have to finish Sejarah folio emelen 1, find points for debate, do homework, find a topic and write out my script for public speaking, satisfy my dear mom and read my book.
TTFN.

Sorry for my last post. I'm gonna delete it.

It is nothing really.

Hmm... Watched Slumdog Millionaire. It was OK. If that really happens in India, this world is REALLY unfair. But then, nothing is fair in this world. I didn't know things like that still happen. Especially religious war and poverty [OK, I know about poverty. But I didn't imagine it to be that bad].

Gonna watch another movie later.

WJ's horoscope thingy and Shan's too was quite accurate. 'You are very prone to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil. It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in. ' [Shan's] and WJ's says I'm very sensitive.

Well, Shan asked if he didn't do anything yesterday to make me feel better, gotta admit, he did [a bit]. And then WJ sacrificed 2 hours of her precious time to talk to me. Love ya WJ! Well, thank you Shan [sounds sarcastic].

Hmm... Back to the normal self again [I hope].

Debate! SJ! BM! Although I finished BM. I wrote it to make people think I still have a lot of work to do, even though I really do. Shit. Talking crap.

Feeling much better now. Thanks to WJ! WJ, you rock! What are great friends for?

I'll stop thinking [blogging] negative stuff for now.

Note to self: Never completely trust anyone ever again. Especially friends and parents.

Sorry, came out negative. 3 negative posts in a row. I tried. Can't think of anything positive to write.

Getting a bit paranoid now. Don't trust anyone [excluding some people]. How do I find happiness now? I really don't know. I can't resume to my normal life. They took it away from me. What am I supposed to do now? Sit here and do nothing? How can I fight back? I can't even speak properly without hinting a bit of my emotion. I got scolded for that.

Now how to do BM folio? URGH! Shit.

Not in a good mood.

i hate my life. weak. i'm just weak. and stupid. weak weak weak. why can't i be strong? i just want to get out of this place. i hate this place. i'm falling apart. don't know which direction to go. but i'll find someway to get out of here. hate them. hate my life here.

murder scene

A bit stressed out. Headache, lack of sleep, tired, down.

Okay, I admit I had a bad day. It all started since Friday. Yesterday was OK though. Kinda fun, especially the station games. Today, well... Tiring. I slept at 2 in the mornin. WE slept at 2 in the mornin and I was the only one feeling the effect.

Cooked our own food for 3 hours.

Pictures!!!

This is what happened.

Couple of siao pos...

This is when things got out of hand.

XD

My arm!!!

URGH! Stupid lappie! I don't get to post my pictures up here.

The camp was awesome! WJ n WL downstairs playing ps2.

Holiday plans

Saturday-Monday: Pandu Puteri camp
Wednesday: Visit to war museum
Friday-Sunday: ???*

Jam packed with stuff man! And I thought I had time to rest. *sigh* I'm looking forward to the camp though. Not exactly the camp, but if they sleepover at my house, we get to watch movies play games and stuff. Hope that WJ doesn't cancel anything unexpectedly [too bad she does].

???*: Not sure yet.

I'm going for a bath and have a nice nap for now.

And to Shan: Happy now? I'll try to blog consistently. That is IF I have anything to say.

Hmm... Mom came back. Bought a whole lot of stuff for me. Little compared to that time she went to Italy, but still. She didn't buy anything for herself. Bought some book she saw in the market [she said the markets there were clean and comfy unlike the ones in Pg], CHOCOLATES, CHOCOLATES and more CHOCOLATES, some puzzle, a bracelet [did i spell that correctly?] and I thought it was quite unnecessary, and a magic hankie.

In the study group. If my parents find out I'm dead.

Gonna have a really long day today. Gotta chiong. Really have to chiong. That means:
Less online time
Less TV time

Argh. If I go on with this list I'm making myself crazy. Oh well. Woke up at 7 this morning thinking of HOW AM I GONNA FINISH EVERYTHING IN THE LAST MINUTE and I was wide awake.

I'm wasting time blogging though. =D

stupid connection. friggin slow tonight. ahh... joined WWF save-the-planet-campaign thingy. Ohoh! And learned how to use HTML! Cool...

Ordered pizza over for tonight. Hehe... Reminds me of the old days about 4 or 5 years ago when Lin Hui comes over and we do all sorts of stuff like watch movies together, play dressing up, create crazy stuff and a lot more. I kinda miss it. Thinking back, it really puts a smile on my face =) to have a chance to really experience what it is like being kids!

And eepoh gave me some of her OLD coins. And when I said old, I mean ANCIENT! Well, not that long though, the oldest one dates back to about 147 years ago. 1862. And a few more. They are Straits Settlement coins. Ohoh! Btw, I got really interested in Sejarah now! Well, since I watched Pearl Harbour. Heee... SO DARNED NICE!!! I LOVE IT!!! My all-time favourite movie (for now).

Tua Kor just came. Chian Yong koko speaks in a really heavy NZ (i think) accent. XD

Ok, back to Pearl Harbour. I LOVE IT! Why don't they make movies like that? Meaningful and historical. Movies these days suck (no offence), but they really do (most of them).

And my precious box is getting heavier and heavier. Tua Kor gave me $100 Sing and it went into my box. I think if I really want something then I'll buy it with 50. I'll definitely keep the other 50. And papa's going to search for some coins for me (for my b'day since he hasn't given me any present). He collects a lot.

To go or not to go? Well, technically, I don't get to choose whether to go or not. I choose whether to apply for it or not. So should I??? I feel like going. But then again, I don't feel like going. So how?