Why I feel threatened by a nine-year-old on Facebook.

I miss..

My tuition teacher who was with me for 5 years. Who went to New Zealand just last year and isn't planning to come back for another few years or so, not even just for a visit.. I really, really miss her. I don't hate her now. I just want to go for tuition again. [This sounds so stupid] Yeah I feel like I've banged my head on the wall. [Ouch] But it's sooo worth it. Without her, I wouldn't be who I am now. I wouldn't be here. I would probably be stuck in some shitty school with friends I don't imagine myself hanging out with. [Hiperbola] But yeah.. She's done a great deal in fixing my life. This sounds so perfect, yes, it wasn't like that when I was with her. I used to dislike her [at times]. She has the power to influence me, [sometimes, in a negative way] about life. Because I see her 2 or 3 times a week, half the time talking nonsense. I miss her. I used to bake cakes with her, go for lunch in Chilli's with her, oh yeah, and even TGIF because she didn't know the way from her house to Queensbay. This is what you get when you hated that person for five years and you thought she ruined your life by shouting at you and telling your mom you didn't do your homework, but at the end of it, she left to persue her own life somewhere far, far away.. And you end up missing her like hell.

This sounds so perfect, but it's not. I just.. Miss her..

And I miss the next door neighbour whom I was not close too but was my neighbour for 15 years.

Haha.. Corny much?

Chien is NOT in a good mood today.
Chien is emo today.
Chien didn't go to school today.
Damn.
Damn everything.

You know that kind of feeling when you have LOADS to do but yet you are wasting your time doing nothing? Heh. I'm driving myself mad. Sigh. Oh well. Update.

I'm gonna learn French. Well, not gonna. I'm learning. By myself. Bought French for Dummies. And I want to learn archery. Yes, I admit. I've gone crazy. And cooking so that I still can survive overseas, that is, if I have enough money to go overseas in a few year's time. Hey, I'm a small girl with a huge dream. I guess that's too big for me to imagine. Quote from PS. I Love You "Aim for the moon, because if you miss, you'll end up amongst the stars!". The future's uncertain. So the NOW factor.

I WANT MY OWN ROOM. I'M PISSED. I've figured that's too hard for them. But I still don't get it. Yes, I'm pissed. But I can't stay pissed for long. Yet I want my own room so badly. Whatever. I wish I could just move out or have my own place to stay. It's killing me, you know. This place. This room. Don't get me wrong. I love my family. I love my parents. I love my grandaunt who raised me up to become what I am now. But I FRIGGIN NEED MY OWN ROOM.

Oh geez homework time. Ciao.