You.

I liked you when you were doing sports.
I liked you when you smile.
I liked your eyes.
I liked your nose.
In fact, I liked every feature of your face.
I liked your hands in mine.
I like the times we shared.
I liked you being a religious person.
I liked that you were kind.
I liked your personality.
I liked the whole you.
I liked it when we were talking.
I liked it when you were sitting beside me.
I liked to watch you play football.
I liked you being protective.
I liked it when you said you love me.
I liked it when you flirt with me.
I liked April.
I liked it when you come over and find me.
I liked it when we shared ice cream.
I liked the good times
I liked it that you were considerate.
I liked it that you used to think of me.
I liked your smell.
I liked to hug your bag.
I liked everything.
I liked it that you dared to dream.
I liked us being together.
I liked these past eight months.
I liked how you encouraged me to study.
I liked it that you were completely honest with me until the end.
I liked it that you put God first.
I liked it when you cared.
I liked your short hair.
I liked how you dressed.
I liked your shoes.
I liked it that you think of me when you made decisions.
You weren't a selfish person.
I liked it that you think of my dreams too.
In my eyes, you were perfect.
I liked how we ended it.
It was such a beautiful dream.
I liked you.
I loved you.
I liked it that you took time off to be honest with me in the end.
I will never forget you.
You were special, really.
I liked you when you were in glasses.
I liked it when you were in contacts too.
I liked everything.
You were the perfect guy.

Now everything is just a happy memory.

Apps.

I recently started using Tumblr. Although I'm more loyal to this blog. Tumblr looks more like a place to share photos and quotes I guess? I uploaded photos on it because this cool app on my iPhone, instagr.am allows me to share those photos that I have edited on my phone to Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr and so on. No Blogger though. Instagr.am is a good app to edit photos. Just a basic and standard one. And it's free. I've never spent a cent on the apps on my phone.

I've recently downloaded one. Ocarina by Smule. Heard of that? I got it for free! It was free for a certain period of time. Though I don't know how to play anything on it yet. You play it like a flute. Sort of. That's the closest I could get to an instrument. And you can learn how to play diferent different songs on its website like this Harry Potter Theme song!



Anyway, back to Instagr.am. It's cool. I edited these pictures that I too from the UK :D
Yeah I know. Finally I uploaded it here, right? I felt a bit guilty uploading them on Tumblr rather than this old faithful blog of mine. So here goes nothing :)

UK and England's flags. The red cross on the white background is the cross of Saint George.

Err. Some random farmhouse?

A telephone booth?

One of my personal favourites! Stonehenge!

We went to North Wales for about a few hours and came back into England.

More to come (if I'm in the mood). Bais. :D

My Dreams.

When I was young, what did I dream of? To be an artist. Because I loved arts. I loved painting or colouring a blank piece of paper to make it full of colours. To make it beautiful, to make it the way I want it to be. I loved handcrafting. I loved Neil Buchanan! That was when I was in kindergarten. Oh and did I say I was fascinatied with books titled "The Human Body"?  I can sit there and read for them for hours. But I was faithful to arts. I just wanted to be an artist. But I just didn't see the world yet, under mom and dad's protective care.

Ok lor. So after knowing that the world don't appreciate artists, I went for something else. What was it? Zoology? Seems interesting. Since I loved animals so much. Was then when I started watching a lot of Animal Planet instead of Disney Channel. I LOVED STEVE IRWIN! Was very sad when I heard the terrible news when I was taking my UPSR. I actually thought of being a vet too. Hmm. But then I can't see a dog die in my hands. And and and hmm. I just didn't have passion? Neh. Anyway, my passion for zoology continued for quite some time, until I got to know that my cousin who studied marine biology has to work in a zoo to wash or scoop elephant poop and couldn't find any proper job (although now he did). But why study something and not practice it? So I changed lor.

Then naturally I has some problems. Hmm. I don't want to talk about it, but I actually ended up seeing a psychologist when I was 10. That was the biggest downfall through my 16 years of life. And I got to realize I wanted to help people. To help people the same way as he tried to help me. In my opinion, I don't think seeing a 'shrink' means you are a lunatic. Sometimes people have problems and the just need someone to talk to. Especially when, like now, everyone has stress. Stress to do well, stress to succeed in life, stress to feed the family, stressed because of worry, fear, anxiety, anger. You have to release those negativity out at times.

LOL. And some people associate psychology with religion and that's weird.. But yeah. If you ask me why psychology and not psychiatry the answer is simple. Because one uses medicine to 'cure' and the other one uses therapy to cure. Personally, I don't think by using medicine, you can cure mental illnesses. 'Illness' is a bit too harsh I expect? You see, when you go and see a psychiatrist and lets say.. you are always anxious. It's affecting your physical health and you can't sleep at night. What does he do? He dispenses anti-anxiety pills for you! Lexotan, maybe? But think.. Can you rely on that medicine forever? Don't forget, western medicine has side effects. Whereas in psychology, you use therapy to treat patients. You talk to them, you understand them, you slowly guide them to the correct path. No medicine. Isn't it better?

Sure lah. The doctor easier ma in psychiatry. Give medicine only what. The doctor also help patients, he also no need to go through the pain of hearing other people's stories. Sorry I'm not that kind of person. And then I changed my mind again.

Since I had Alopecia. LOL. I went to see a dermatologist a few months back. Then I realized I wanted to help people and find cure to different diseases. I want to work in a research centre or a science lab to discover cure for different diseases because I felt the frustration of not really knowing what can cure you and you end up spending a few thousand dollars without really knowing if it can or cannot cure you. Sure, alopecia, go to the doctor, get some steroid shots, apply some corticosteroids, eat some anxiety pills then bam! You have hair growing like bamboo shoots. Some people really do get frustrated when nothing works for them. I felt it myself. That's why I would want to be a doctor someday. Not the sit-in-the-clinic-and-meet-patients type but the research type. Hmm. But that lady I talked to just now sounds discouraging. LOL. And I don't know if I have the qualifications and results to persue that path.

And another important thing: I hate Chemistry. So I'll just go back to psychology. But I'm afraid I may go crazy. Really. If I meet mental patients everyday. I MEAN IF. So yeah. Between those two.

See SPM how lah.

THIS IS WHAT PENANG PEOPLE ARE PROUD OF.

TADAAA!

Gurney Drive Penang!

The most expensive apartments, high class condos, shopping centres (there's going to be a new one coming soon, Paragon), hotels, mansions, etc are situated around that area. Every weekend at peak hours, there will be a huge traffic jam around that area because of our own Gurney Plaza. Branded goods are sold there. Teenagers like to lepak there. Rich lao yis and uncles like to go there and buy expensive stuff to show off to people that they're rich (come to think of it, that's why they buy expensive things right? because people are stupid enough to admire them). You know how much is the rent for one shoplot in Gurney Plaza? Some shops come in and out simply because they can't afford the high rent.

High class condos such as The Regency is BIG. HUGE. G Hotel which is next to Gurney Plaza is expensive I've never even been inside before. Coffee shops, kopitiams, restaurants which are facing the sea charge customers unreasonable prices just simply because that's Gurney Drive. I remember I've been to one. Mr. Pot? Not worth it. The first highrise apartment in Penang was even built there! So, would-be tourists of Penang or whoever unlucky and innocent people who stumble upon this blog of mine, read until here. Please stop. I don't want to be the one to blame for failing the tourist industry.

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Fellow people of Penang. I think that we have to take immediate action. But this is what we are pround of:

Look at the rubbish stuck between the rocks! Look at how muddy the water is! What happened to the turquoise colour of the ocean? I am really disappointed! This is supposed to be a site of tourist attraction! Why would tourists want to come to Malaysia if they have this in their own country? :

See the colour of the ocean? Compare! Unless you are colour blind, I demand YOU to do something about it. You can start by caring about the environment. NEVER NEVER throw rubbish into the sea. Or on the road. Or into drains. If you do, you are selfish and ignorant. Where do the rubbish go to? Some random jellyfish or turtle may start chewing on the plastic bag because they, unlike us, weren't awarded a brain this size to think. And they'll eventually die. What happens if that is the last few of the same species? Because of you, you stupid ignorant jerk, your child won't know what a _________ turtle looks like in real life. There. Then they only have to imagine, like us imagining how big a dodo bird is, from pictures and descriptions how a ___________ turtle looks like.

Plus. Do you know how bad the economy is right now? Do you know that we earn money from the tourism industry? Do you know how and what other countries do to boost their income from tourists? Do you know almost every city or town I went to in England is a Heritage site? Do you know what they do to take care of the buildings? Laser, maybe? Do you know they use some amount of money to repair and make it better so that more tourists will come in the future? Do you know how clean the beaches and seas are in other countries? Then why would ang mohs want to come and visit Malaysia if the toilets are so dirty, the sea isn't blue, they find rubbish everywhere, the heritage houses are falling apart?

They really have to think of something. Pulau Jerejak can even be converted into something. Like Sentosa. Make full use of what you have! There's so much room for improvement. The people here aren't even friendly. Cashiers don't even smile, they don't even greet you, they treat teenagers like mindless children, they'll probably act arrogant or rude because they think we don't have the power to complain. I say the heck! We are customers too! We have the right!

I shall end this post with a few more pictures I took yesterday from Gurney Drive.

Still proud of Gurney Drive? Batu Feringgi is the same anyway.

I'm too lazy to upload photos here. Hehe maybe will upload them next time.

Why can't SOME people just stop thinking about themselves and start thinking about others?

Hmm, anyway, I got my results. My phone isn't confiscated and I don't feel anything. Dad was hoping he would get my phone but, sorry! It's all mineeee. I don't feel happy because I didn't do very well? And I don't feel sad because I have no reason to feel sad. But I do feel sad that some people are going down. I really do miss Yen Yee and her annoyingnessssss. I'd rather hear her nag a hundred times a day than not hear her voice at all. Oh wait, did I say hundred? Oh not can cut short to 50 ah? I mean, it's her! Although we've had our hard times where we fought with each other (everytime there's a fight she is always involved) but I MISS YOU YEN YEE AND I LOVE YOU. (I can sure picture how zi lian she will get if she does read this though)

And since 2010 is coming to an end, I shall blog about it. Well, I've been sitting beside LeeLee for the whole year and since discovered what a GREAT friend she really is. WE TALK A FEW HOURS A DAY. We talk during Sejarah, Add Maths, Maths OH and homeowork! I seriously don't know how we got through the whole year of Maths period without getting caught. Then sometimes, Yapu and WanJian will join us too! And maybe YenYee when she isn't busy telling us off for talking in class. Yapu often turns around and puts her exercise books on WeyLyn's table to join our conversations. And when she turns back around, she often forgets stuff. Pencils, pens, rulers and we will take them and hide it from her. :P Then Loh Bak Jian. She really improved a lot this year leh. No fights with her. Maybe got la but not as many as last year. She and her weird glasses. I think she looks better with contacts though :P And that leaves YenYeeee! <3

Occasionally TeeCee and JieYing will come and join us la hehe. All talk talk talk talk for maybe half a day. Wahh no wonder we keep getting scolded for being so noisy lah.

We hated Chemistry and Maths periods. Or maybe I did. I don't know which one is worse. Both are just the same I think. I loved Biology. She was good at teaching it. Too bad she isn't going to continue next year. English period was just noisy as heck. No one actually listens except 2 or 3 people sitting in fornt. And its just another session of Yugioh for the boys. Chinese period got a bit noisy too at the end of the year. Oh I give up. We are only afraid of Chemistry and Maths teacher.

And I met great people! Like Josh who is awesome! Hmm we had four foriegn exchange students in our class this year. Saba, Sana, Marlyn and Jojo. The farewell parties were fun! Although we thought that Jojo would be gone for good but he came back! That was a bit embarrassing. LOL.

Thanks to WeyLyn, I have this amazing Add Maths tuition teacher that I like very much. And Stella and Yuh Miin who is so hard to catch up which gave me a bit of challenge. And she gives us chocolates to eat! Who doesn't know how much I like chocolate?

Oh continue next time. Got tuition tonight. Dey Sayz Got New Boii. : / Hope he is better than the current one.

Byes! :D

Oh and Yen Yee may switch with Kharnyee which means she has a chance in our class! :)

Okay, I'm getting awfully bored now. I think I'll just go to bed early tonight again. I've watched 5 episodes of Glee on PPS today. Oh did I mention PPS worked? I no longer see symbols on the left column. I just went to Control Panel > Region and Language > Admin > Change locale to Chinese. Well that was easy. But that only applies to Windows 7 I think.

Being in England was fun. I would love to study there. I hope I could. People are polite and friendly there. I guess that's how they were taught and raised from young. They can just pass by you and say 'Hello' or 'Good morning' without actually knowing you. When you make eye contact with them they smile. Wonderful people there.

But cold. The weather was bitterly cold. So cold your ears go numb and painful and you have the compulsion to run inside a warm place for comfort. The cold wind blows straight into your face. Mucus just oozes out of your nose without you even realizing it and you'll find dried blood after that. Skin cracks and makes it bleed. Skin turns dry. Really really dry. Apply cream on it and it'll dry up 5 minutes later. It's the coldest earliest winter since I don't know when. LOL. Temperatues in certain parts of England, Scotland and Wales went down to as low as -17 degree celcius. But soon, you start to see snow. White blankets of snow covering the fields, roof tops, benches.. and you think that's so worth it! It was beautiful. The scenary. It's my first ime seeing and touching snow. I got so excited hehe.

The weather was very kind to us, actually. Papa said that it will rain everyday. He even said don't bother to bring sunglasses. It did drizzle actually. But about 5 minutes in total when I was there. Hehe. While I was visiting Stonehenge. Then it stopped. The weather was fine, bright and sunny until we came down from Edinburgh to the border of England and we start to see snow. Hehe. It didn't snow in London though when we were there because you don't usually get snow I London but the weather had been a bit off lately.

I still didn't get to lie down to make a snow angel yet. Or maybe build a snowman like what Jie Ying did in Germany? Would love to try that someday. :)

But on the downside, I got this horrible cough that stuck to me for a few days now. Guess I couldn't stand the cold? Now how am I supposed to go the the north pole to see the Northern Lights if I can't stand the cold in England? Ooh ooh! The Northern Lights are so pretty. It's such a beautiful phenomena. [Oh and I would like to see Santa to tell him he has forgotten to include me in his nice list for years now :P]

Geez what's your problem. I have to start for SPM. Shit.