Here's a great big photo of her huge head because I'm not feeling any better.


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I'm looking at this right now The 40 Most Handsome Hollywood Men. Not handsome one. Yer.
Apparently, I have too much free time. Hee...

Robert Pattinson is not bad from certain angles, I'll have to admit. But in some pictures, eelk. Josh Duhamel! Why didn't I notice him earlier? OMG! Chris Pine! He's cute! Gah.

Megan Fox ranks no. 8. Gah. She should be number 1. Gosh she's hot. If I were to be a lesbian, I would fall for her. I'll stop right now. Ha...

I'm in love with HIM!!!

I love him.
Same age.
Nice music.
[Although I only listened to "One Time"]
But hey...
I love him.
Did I mention I love him?
Oh yeah I did.
I LOVE HIM!
[Syok sendiri]

At least better looking than HIM.
Right?
You don't have to click that.
That's Nick Jonas.

Some crazy Jonas fan is gonna kill me, I suppose?



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I CAN'T GET SICK!!! What if they don't allow me in?? The trip is like a few days away. WHAT IF THEY DON'T ALLOW ME IN???? Argh. That brat. Coughed in her blankie and threw it in my face. She KNEW I don't like her doing that. And she did that on purpose. Cough on my hand. On my face. On MY pillow in the hotel room. On my bed. Ewww... I can't get sick. I just can't.

But anyway, as bitchy as she can be, she'll always be my sister... =)

BUT I'LL NEVER FORGIVE HER IF THE IMIGRATION OFFICER STOPS ME.

Exam's over, though I dunno what to do now.

I started throwing books and test papers away last night. Two big piles of books, revision exercises and exercise books. I want to clear off my table and THIS room I'm in. But I dunno where to start off. It's full of junk and old stuff. I admit SOME of them are mine =]. Old toys oo... flower pots decoration kit. Hehe... Soon, this room is going to be mine! Yay! My own room. Mom says she's going to renovate it for me. I hope it can be done before my 16th birthday!

I'm fairly pleased with meself.. Survived PMR, I mean. Well, now its over. But I still don't feel the happiness or what I thought I was supposed to feel. Haiz... I want 6A's. Can get? I hope so. The other 2? BM and BC. Eekk...

Lala~ I'm bored now. What to do... what to do...

Can I drop Chinese in SPM? Because if they don't let me, I'm thinking of transferring to other schools. I'm only thinking. Mommy says that's gonna happen on one condition, that is, IF I get straight A's. T.T Die la... Maybe if I beg? What la... I've already suffered for 9 years. Will another two more hurt? Mommy asks me to take up the challenge. We are learning 文言文 for goodness' sake! What are we, correction, I am going to use that for??? I mean, during an interview, the boss would go like, ''what does bla bla bla mean?'' The heck? Can speak enough already ma! 9 years not enough meh? If I come out after SPM and don't practice my Chinese, I'm also going to forget everything.

And you know what? That old hag punished us and delayed our recess to 11:30. Helllllooo... Some people have gastric here.. Nothing to do in school also. I'd rather stay home and sleep.

Ohoh! And I got back my baby! After 8 months in my mom's closet. The battery was flat which nearly gave me a heart attack.. Ahh...

Connection so slow... Finally finished Sivik folio. Stupid 10 marks. Do something out of recycled material, waste more than six hours of my life cursing the teacher and swearing and get so worked up for what? 10 marks. And I probably wouldn't get full marks because, like my mom said, I do things half-heartedly. Sivik somemore times 2 nia.

Heheh.. Since my mom isn't around, I'm playing some games on Facebook. I'm supposed to be banned, remember? And download some music too.

I get so happy these days. Dunno what has gotten into me, well, except for yesterday.

I want Haagen Dazs!!!!! I'm so friggin' hungry. Mom's not back yet.

Oh yeah. Tuition teacher gave me a bar of chocolate brought back from NZ by her husband. Whittaker's or something? NICE MAN!!!! I could finish the whole bar in a day!

Ooh mom's back.

Its about 2 weeks since I've blogged? Anyway, this is the first time I'm using the computer since the holidays started. Come to think of it, I don't really know what I did during the holidays. Studied a bit, watch some tv, went for tuition, eat, eat, and eat, sleep, listen to music and do nothing else. If I go on like this I'll go crazy. *bangs head on the wall* I don't even know what I've studied. I tend to forget things. And my Maths is going down. Now only know how bad my Math is due to lack of concentration on what Pan Pan says in class.

Begged my mom to let me use the computer. She gave me a one-hour limit. And obviously, I'm way over the limit. And I took the whole modem to my bedroom so I could download some songs. She's gonna kill me when she comes home.

Bloody phone line isn't allowing me to make any calls. Since making the last call to my mom, I couldn't call Domino's to order pizza and that was on Monday. Now still can't call anyone. Stupid phone line.

Trails are next week. Dunno what I've studied. Only completed Geography. Doing Maths. No idea on the last chapter, Trigonometry. Read Harry Potter if my brain refuses to work anymore. It works though, since I can't sleep. I get weird or scary dreams during the night and usually wake up at odd hours in the morning then get back to sleep again.

Oh yeah. And I started playing the piano again! [Even though that's nothing to boast about.] Just happy that I started touching the keys after a year. Kinda developed a phobia after I quit last year.

Damn. The tone of this post is like soooo depressing. Yet I'm typing nonsense.

Went to Cameron last week. Was fun. Nothing much to do though. The flowers were really nice up there! Will upload photos if I have a chance. Using the stupid lappie that does not detect my phone memory card.

WHAT IS BLOODY WRONG WITH MY DARNED COMPUTER???????

****.

Keep cool... Keep cool...

Facebook can't open. The send error report thing keeps popping up and it keeps refreshing itself so it pops up another 30 secs or so.

Antivirus can't download don't have any idea why. I just friggin' fully downloaded it and tell me can't run or can't open or some stupid lame excuses and the damned software disappeared.

Anyway, mommy returned me the computer because I told her I want to see photos. And she made me find some interesting places in Perth to go to. Haven't found any yet. The plans of the trip are in the hands of a fifteen-year-old that couldn't even figure out WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS OLD PIECE OF TRASH I'M TYPING ON.

Papa bought 80 gig of external disk for the lappie. That's why I'm downloading the antivirus again. I deleted it since I didn't have enough memory space. I dunno what is taking up so much memory space.

Kor kor went home. She bought a whole big book of World War II Chronicles for me this time. I think she has some kind of psychological disease that she lost resistance to her little angel's sweet little voice persuading her to buy things. Every single time she walks into a shop without having anything to buy in mind she ends up spending more than 50 dollars buying things that she doesn't need. *Not talking anything bad about her.* Okay I'll stop now.

She's not as bitchy as I thought she would be but she still gets on my nerves. I kinda miss her when she goes back. Aiyo... Forgot to mention she's taking horse ridding lessons. And ballet lessons. And piano lessons. And Kumon. And tuition. And art class. And goes to an international school. And used to learn golf. And and and and and speaks English with a British accent with her father and other ang mohs. And is filthy rich. And has a laptop of her own. And has a handphone by the age of 4. And has a room of her own. And has a British birth certificate. Ok. Really stop now. *sigh*

The Nanny here I come!

1st time so interested in basketball. XD

But Chung Hwa lost. *sigh*

It's late and I'm still here, blogging. Going to school to participate in the treasure hunt tomorrow organized by the scouts.

Some people very lansi lo...

When I'm expressing my feelings,

I'm being negative.

When I don't express my feelings,

I am being fake.

When I talk too much,

I may hurt someone's feelings.

When I don't talk,

I'm introverted.

When I think too much,

I'm paranoid.

When I don't think that much,

I'm naive.

When I say everything's fine,

I'm lying.

When I say I'm in a bad mood,

I'm always down.

When I care,

I'm the one not letting go.

When I don't care,

I'm not a good friend.

When I fight back,

I have anger management issues.

When I don't fight back,

I'm weak.

When I trust someone,

I'm vulnerable.

When I don't trust anyone,

I'm not believing in myself.

When I have self confidence,

I'm a snob.

When I don't have self confidence,

I'm a failure.

When I cry,

I'm such a baby.

When I'm trying to be strong,

I'm not being myself.

When I have low expectations,

I'm not believing in myself.

When I have high expectations,

I get disappointed easily.

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You see...

Everything has a good side and a bad side.

What's your point of view?

Yes I know.

I'm negative.

This is what I feel right now.

It doesn't mean I'm always like that.

I just need a while to get through things.

P/s: I'm not talking about anyone here. These are what I think. I just can't get over myself. Dammit.

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Went to the movies with Ke Yun and Jie Ying and the others yesterday. Harry Potter 6 was okay. Better than I expected. Maybe because I've partly forgotten the story and mixed everything up with the 7th book. The people in the cinema should shoo me out for talking too much XD. Oh yeah. It was Yuh Miin's birthday too.

LOL. Mom came in and saw me in this position in front of the computer. Again. She's going to take the lappie away.

Hmm... Some quiz I took accused me of having some kind of mental sickness. XD
For all I know I didn't answer negatively. Dunno why.

What I'm looking forward to:

Friday: Kor kor's coming back! Dunno why. Probably because the last time she came out, she got me a PSP because I was too jealous of my little cousin XD. Say goodbye to the horrible catered food that mommy forces me to eat because there aren't really aren't anything to eat at home. I not money face la. At least someone to keep me company ma. So friggin bored at home. 15 years of being the only child. Sucks huh...

Sunday: Harry Potter here I comeeeeeee! Been waiting impatiently for you for nearly a year!

After this is...

Oh yeah.

14th of August: Can become a psychic already. Because I predicted that I'm going to be sick and absent from school on this day. =D












No la. I'm going to Cameron Highlands because mommy has more than a thousand dollars worth of Equatorial Hotel vouchers and she chose to go to Cameron simply to breathe the fresh air up there. [Haze season la now. No fresh air to breathe oso.] But-I-want-to-stay-in-chalets! Booo... Papa's celebrating his birthday up there too. [Mommy is jealous of that because I keep mentioning his birthday in shopping malls so that we could stay on longer looking for a suitable present and because I don't get her presents because no one can be free enough to take me for a trip to the mall except her.] That was long.




Going out. THEY NAGGING AT ME.

Been gao bin puih enough to ask people to tag me. XD

100 Truths
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Hot Milo.
2. Last phone call: Er... On my phone? Boon. Dated 3 days back.
3. Last text message: Halo...
4. Last song you listened to: Just Stand Up.
5. Last time you cried: Last week probably.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone: ahh... No?
7. Been cheated on: Nooo...
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: She kissed me. Does that count?
9. Lost someone special: Nope.
10. Been depressed: Of course. Stupid hormones.
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Baby blue.
13. Orange.
14. White.

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yes.
17. Laughed until you *nearly* cried: Never.
18. Met someone who changed you: *thinks hard* Yes.
19. Found out who your true friends were: I guess...
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Not really. Or maybe. Think so. Yes.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Maybe.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: All of them.
23. How many kids do you want to have: 1 or 2? Dunno.
24. Do you have any pets: Bobo the dog and the tortoise.
25. Do you want to change your name: Nope. Why should I?
26. What did you do for your last birthday: McD.
27. What time did you wake up today: 0713 hours.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Probably snoring.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Australia!
30. Last time you saw your Mother: A few minutes ago.
31. What is the one thing you want to change about your life: So that I wouldn't be sitting here waiting for a miracle to happen.
32. What are you listening to right now: Renegade.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Discrimination against women.
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook, Blogger.
36. Whats your real name: *deleted* Because it will be the first link on Google.
37. Nicknames: *deleted*
38. Relationship Status: Single and not avaliable.
39. Zodiac sign?: Pisces.
40. Male or female?: Female.
41: Primary School : SJK(c) Union, SJK(c) Chung Hwa Confucian (A)
42. High School : Chung Hwa Confucian High School
43. College?: Dunno.
44. Hair colour: Dark Brown?
45. Long or short: Short.
46. Height: 175 cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Er... Dunno. Not really.
48: What do you like about yourself?: Dunno.
49. Piercings: Ears?
50. Tattoos: Had temporary ones. Does that count? LOL.
51. Righty or lefty: Righty.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Never had one.
53. First piercing: age 6.
54. First best friends: Kindergarten? Or I dunno. Maybe Primary.
55. First sport you joined: Swimming.
56. First vacation: Gold Coast, Australia.
58. First pair of trainers: Forgot.

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: Not chewing anything.
60. Drinking: Nor swallowing anything.
61. Doing: This.
62. Listening to: Vision Of Love.
63. Waiting on: Kor Kor to come back to Penang! Yay!

YOUR FUTURE :
65. Get Married?: Maybe. Or maybe not.
66. Career?: Psychologist? Psychotherapist? Neurologist? A small girl with a big dream, I know.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs.
69. Shorter or taller: Taller.
70. Older or Younger: Dunno.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Who cares?
73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive.
74. Hook-up or relationship: Dunno.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker? Dunno.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: Course not.
77. Drank hard liquor: Nope. I don't like the taste of alchohol.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yep. Glasses. I don't really use them, anyway.
79. Sex on first date: =.=
80. Broken someone's heart: Dunno.
82. Been arrested: Nope.
83. Turned someone down: Maybe. Dunno. Think so.
84. Cried when someone died: Er... No. I did cry when I THOUGHT my dog died. He was really sick then and they told me he died. Then he got up after that.
85. Fallen for a friend?: Um... Nope?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Nope.
87. Miracles: Yes.
88. Love at first sight: Nope.
89. Heaven: Yes.
90. Santa Claus: Used to.
91. Kiss on the first date: Maybe.
92. Angels: The ones with wings? No. But I do believe in angels. =)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Nope.
95. Did you sing today?: Yep.
96. Ever lied on somebody?: Yep.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 3 years old. No worries. Be happy. =]
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: May holidays.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yep.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? : If I didn't, would you be reading it now? Or are you hallucinating? Better go see an eye doctor.

Tagging: Anyone who wasted time reading to the end of this post hoping to get some dirt out of me but realised that they haven't gotten anything interesting. =]

P/S: Tagging YOU.

How miserable I will be if my imaginary brother exists

I'm gonna start having titles for my posts. Or maybe just this one. Feel like ranting now.

LOL. I used to wish I have an elder brother. Or maybe a younger one. So that I can bully him whenever I can. Well, you can't blame me for that because I'm getting so bored at home by myself. [Put aside my only bitchy cousin for a while.] So I started imgaining what I would do if I had a brother.

But then, recently, I found out about something. If I were to have a brother, I wouldn't be happy at all. Much like in the same situation of how jealous I had been when SHE came into my life. Even a billion times worse. And that went on for... about 8 years or so? Only before I noticed how luckier I am compared to her [even if she gets everything she wants by crying and throwing tantrums]. Okay, I admit. I got jealous of her because she stole some attention away from me. Or maybe ALL the attention because I was supposed to be the youngest. Whatever... I don't care now. All I care is she got a PSP, a camera and an Ipod for christmas last year. [I blogged about this before, but her mom bought me a PSP for my birthday so I'll make it even.]

I got so jealous then. Imagine IF, by some miracle, I had another brother on the way. It will ultimately ruin me.

Flashback to before I was born when they knew the sex of the foetus in my mom's womb [sadly, me]. They weren't very happy to know that I was a girl. Especially my dad. Probably because I'm the last generation of the Law family that is still carrying the Law surname. After me, there wouldn't be any Laws from my family. Maybe a very distant cousin or so. But I can understand that pressure on my dad. He got mad at mom when he knew I was a girl. Heck, everyone wasn't really keen because I was a girl. And years later, made me wish on my birthday to have twin brothers. Shows how desperate they were for another baby boy.

My two aunts, which are my dad's elder sisters didn't persue higher education and yet my dad went to England to study. NOT by scholarship. I don't blame them if they rebel. I once asked my grandaunt 'If I had another brother, who will she pay more attention to?' She just simply answered that boys come first.

What can boys do that girls can't? Why do chinese have that thinking that boys come first rather than girls?

Here are some successful women.

Hillary Diane Rodham Clinton
(born October 26, 1947) is the 67th United States Secretary of State, serving in the administration of President Barack Obama. She was a United States Senator from New York from 2001 to 2009. She was a leading candidate for the Democratic presidential nomination in the 2008 election.

Margaret Hilda Thatcher Baroness Thatcher LG, OM, PC, FRS
(born 13 October 1925) is a retired British politician. She was the Prime Minister of the United Kingdom from 1979 to 1990 and Leader of the Conservative Party from 1975 to 1990. She is the only woman to have held either post.

Valentina Vladimirovna Tereshkova
(Russian: Валенти́на Влади́мировна Терешко́ва; born 6 March 1937) is the first woman in space, now a retired Soviet cosmonaut. Out of more than four hundred applicants and then out of five finalists, she was selected to pilot Vostok 6 on 16 June 1963 and become the first woman to fly in space. On this mission, lasting almost three days in space, she performed various tests on herself to collect data on the female body's reaction to spaceflight.

You get the point.

There's one nilai 'Mengekalkan tradisi kekeluargaan' in moral studies. Does this count?
'Menerima, menghormati dan mengekalkan sesuatu kebiasaan, adat atau kepercayaan yang diwarisi secara turun temurun dalam keluarga.'
Does it apply in this situation? IF it does, its bullshit. Pantang larang or whatever.

This is DISCRIMINATION.

I feel bad that I can't do certain things because I am a girl. [At home]

Don't make me go into what they teach in chapter 4 in the form 3 textbook and explain in a scientific way, that it has NOTHING to do with whatever we are born with.

WTF.

The same with black people. Or us Asians.

Be proud of who you are.

They're going to teach Maths and Science in BM from 2012 onwards. Thank God I won't be in school by then. 2 more years to go. By then... Yipee...

Oh yeah. Improved from the 1st term. =) =) =)

lalalala...

Downloading some old songs now.

Anyways, this is just a short update since I didn't update for quite a while now.

MJ died? Ooh... I loved his songs. Hmph..


About 1a.m. in the morning
Anonymous: I LOVE PEARL HARBOUR! I want to watch somemore.
The next day in school...
Anonymous: I HATE Pearl Harbour. So bian tai d...

A few months back
Anonymous: I want to quit P.P.
After marching
Anonymous: I won't quit anymore.
After watching band practice
Anonymous: I want to quit to join band.

Wednesday
Anonymous: I LOVE TAYLOR SWIFT! I love her. She is my girlfriend and Conan is my boyfriend. I love her songs.
Today
Anonymous: I hate Taylor Swift. She is so bitchy, like Miley Cyrus.



I don't know whether or not to post this. I'll get into trouble. But anyway... I'm not insulting anyone. Just posting it for humour nia.

Stayed up until 1 talking to siao lang WJ who still didn't want to hang up the phone. LOL.

Today was kinda fun. XD Walked the whole way with Zi Ling and Yuh Miin with Shan and Eugene occasionally revealing themselves. Czeng Ye was behind too. Quite tiring though.

Then XinYi, Yuh Miin and Eugene walked to Gurney. Watched Transformers 2. Lazy to say whole name. Anyway, I think the first movie is nicer. I'll forget the story line by tomorrow. Can't really catch what the point of the movie is. But quite nice la. The special effects was AMAZING. I wonder how they filmed that movie. Who created the special effects? Aiya... I'm not a movie critic. Then we went around to lepak because XY couldn't stand goin in the 'ting ting' shop. HAHA... But this will probably be the last time I'm going out with my friends. Even then, my mom is forcing me to do a whole lot of exercises for her. I still want to watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince and Cirque Du Freak. *sigh*

Counting down to the end of PMR. By then, I can be free! Yay! Sleepover at WL's and probably Genting. WJ's idea [She changes her mind easily].

XD
Now chatting with Eugene about the good ol' days. Not that good though. BAD.
Anyway. *sulks*

They canceled the trip. THEY canceled the trip. They CANCELED the trip. They canceled THE trip. They canceled the TRIP! GAH!!!! I was looking forward to it. THEY canceled it. Stupid H1N1. Bloody. Blasted virus. *sulks*

Plane tickets are down by more than 50% though. AND THEY STILL CANCELED IT. They said what. Go there come back [to Singapore] kena quarentine for 7 days la, cannot attend public functions or school or whatever to prevent H1N1 from spreading la. I'm blaming the virus for that.

Think of the bright side. Perth nice meh? I'm restraining myself from google-ing it because I don't want to go crazy over them canceling the trip. *sulks* Mom says ''go somewhere near this year''. Stupid virus. Then she continues with ''I have a good idea. India.'' Wh-at? India not near la. But I know she wants to go there. Exchange Perth for India. BLAH. But say nia la. I won't be suprised if we ended up going nowhere.

I want to go to Africa though. =) I want to go to the Table Mountain. And see the wild animals roam freely. =D [I only dream of going there.]